The Wait

The following day, Friday, after my MRN(i) I contacted the Neurography Institute to ask them for a copy of both the report and images themselves. I get results and hold onto them as they occur. I do not want any form of unneeded delay or barrier placed into the way of getting treatment. The charge for this was $55, as soon as the reports and images were completed, they'd FEDEX them to me so I got them simultaneous to the Dr.

The weekend went by. This is when a culmination of events began to take hold. I am a loved person. People are interested in what happens to me (or mightily feign it very well.) I was no being visited by my numerous friends and family and asked for updates. Those with longer distances to travel would email me, asking for an update. How do you go about explaining all that has happened in a brief manner. I could just say 'I'm doing fine, waiting for results,' but then I'd be reamed for not telling them 'all' the details if they in turn spoke with someone who'd received the 'full' update. My parents especially, bless their hearts, have a specific intrigued and desire to be 'fully' apprised of each and every step and my 'take' on the news and findings. Now, knowing that I have a great deal of medical knowledge and experience, my 'take' on things consists of not only the present knowledge, but also the ten-fold potential processes that might be at work, plus the unknowns. In the end, you go down the rabbit hole and could find 30 different routes to other lawns. For my parents, this cuts both ways.

Obviously, imparting knowledge or information on someone is straight forward, other than in figuring out the -proper - way to tell them. You need to guard how you present information to someone who is easily distressed or over-emotional. For someone who's a bit 'denser'..maybe..you have to slow things down and create articulate analogies. So, the mere task of telling someone can get quite complex. When you have many friends and caring relatives, the task becomes a project. This project is itself quite exhaustive, mostly mentally, but your body also gets run down form the excess hormones.

When it comes to those feint of heart, and if you have any type of empathy, then you will also consider what the stress of being ill has on others. Therefore, your considering the other persons heartache and as any caring person would do, try and relieve that problem. As such, it becomes a complex task because you're now trying to alleviate pain or concern from someone else, when you're the person causing it. Its almost a catch-22, and thoroughly distracting.

Anyway, through this time I kept researching. I've read more about Pelvic Pain and the Pudendal Nerve than I ever care to remember. I've gone through forums, chat sessions, news articles, published papers, over and over. I've read through Google pages on how to refine term and keyword searches. On and on and on. I've read PDR (Physicians Desk Reference) on medications. Read website after website.....